Suicide spirit

I wasnt going to share this but so many christians are taking their lives that I really feel the need to share this.Several years ago when I was dabbling heavy in to occultism and demonic powers I saw like a beutiful being stand before me saying its to bad my child that God made you so worth less and you cant seem to have any thing go right in life that I want you to know I feel your pain and I love you but because of the things you have done in life God sees no value in you so go ahead and just commit suicide.Well this spirit appeared to me several more times than I went over and saw my girl friend one moring totalley straight and she said Tim today is a good day to die so we went in her bath room and she put her hand over mine and I held the razor and she pulled back with great force and my wrist was slit wide open and blood was going every where.Well she was all excitted and I was just in shock so she said lets do it again so we did it again and again.Well there was so much blood every where than she said you cant stay here because that would be murder they would accuse me of so I drove around with blood going every where.Well I ended up in the emergency room not knowing how I got there but the Doctor said I was only 2 minutes away from bleeding to death.Well after I got out of the psychiatric ward I attempted suicide several more times.Than I cried out to God and Christ revealed himself to me and restored me mentalley,emtionalley and spiritualley.Wll a short time later I got saved but this spirit kept coming to me trying to convince me how sorry he was that God made me so worth less and how my life meant nothing.See I was very familar with demonic spirits because of all the evil I was in but this spirit was so differnt than other spirits because he said I love you.Well I ended up writting a book called SUICIDE SPIRIT,because my 22 year battle with this spirit was diffecult but one thing I learned is Jesus Christ isnt a religion or a figure he is the actual loving God that died for our sins.Tim