Hi,
I just wanted to share that for those of us who married before meeting the Lord Jesus, there is hope.
My husband and I were both unsaved when we got married 10 years ago. After two years into the marriage, the revelation came to me that “God loved me”. It was such an amazing concept to me, that One so Great, could love an insignificant ant like me. I fervently read the Bible until the book fell apart. It changed my life. My husband did not like it…it scared him and we ended up separating while he continued his “wild” living. With the support of his family and friends, he excluded me from his life…even though I was expecting his first child at the time.
Although we had sought at least 10 different counselors and pastors for help, it only made matters worse. I found that the church was not as supportive as I thought they would be. One pastor made light of my husband’s flamboyant ways (I left that church and later found out that the pastor was removed for having an affair with another man). It was a long, lonely nine months with many tears. I was hanging off the cross most days of my pregnancy, this was my wilderness experience and God seemed so distant and I felt like I was holding my breath.
I got baptized when I was five months pregnant and somehow I knew I was going to continue going through the fire. This fire produced my testimony. When I finally had my healthy baby, my husband continued playing games and our attempts to reconcile kept ailing. I had to call upon, Jesus Christ, “tough love”, exceptional grooming and cleanliness in all aspects of my life, to go through it… a legal-type separation. By now I had the strength to stand strong on the rock of my salvation and stand firm on the truth of the word of God. I drew my lines, defined them and my husband was unable to see me at all. He was now free to spend all the time in the world doing whatever pleased him the most. I prayed fro him during this time asking God to save him even if our marriage ended in divorce…I prayed for his salvation, not for my benefit but for his. I had a few wonderful Christian mentors at the time who gave me perspective and reminded me of who I was in Christ on those days that I felt doubtful. I lit a candle, read the word and prayed with Jesus and the Holy Spirit, since “where two or more are gathered He is present”…I had no one else to pray with during those 30 days (which I had not deliberately counted by the way).
I did experience the miracle when my husband and I chance met under strange circumstances. My husband told me that he had accepted the Lord Jesus as his savior, and of his experiences with God during that time. God is true. He stands true to His word and there is nothing impossible for Him. I had no belief that we would reconcile but God showed me. I put my husband’s salvation first before all of my personal hopes and my reward was a reconciled marriage. I was more than happy to not sin against God by divorcing. I have been able after that to help my sister go through a fierce battle in her own marriage by introducing her to Jesus Christ and helping her along the way. I was supposed to write a book on my experience to help encourage other married couples but it has not materialized. Today, the thought came into my mind… “God’s miracles”. That’s how I found you…It is His will for me to share my testimony through you. Thank you kindly for your website and for the ability you offer us to share the visible side of God with others.
God Bless You!
Kim
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