The biggest dream I have ever had was to be a mother. I never even considered that I wouldn’t be able to have children. In 2001 my husband and I got married, that was also when I had my first miscarriage. I was devastated. Little did I know, that was the beginning of a really long and hard road to travel. My faith in God took a huge hit. I thought I had done something wrong, that it was my fault. The Lord showed me in His word that every barren woman eventually had a child. He comforted me by letting me know, through David’s experience, that I would one day be able to go to my child.
I went on to have 5 more miscarriages in the span of 6 years. The doctors couldnt find out why I couldnt carry a baby to term. I was at my breaking point. When I saw other women who were pregnant, I would ask God why it was so easy for them, and not for me. He told me that I didn’t know what they had to get through to get to that point. In 2003, my husband and I went to hear a Nigerian Evangelist speak at a church in Pensacola. During the service he called for people to come up for prayer who wanted to have children. By this time, I was so heart broken, that I was reluctant to go for prayer, and decided to stay in my pew and pray. I hadn’t even realized that he had left the podium and was walking the isles of the church, until I felt his hand on my shoulder and he told me and my husband both to go down for prayer. He prophesied over us that our disappointment was not final. At the end of the service, again, he called us down for prayer.
By the year 2007, I‘d had a total of 6 miscarriages and my faith was battered and bruised. I reminded God over and over again of the promise he made to me in 2003. I would be a mother, and I had to have the faith it took to let God do his thing. When God starts something he doesn’t quit, he will finish the work he started. God is not a liar, but we have to understand that He works in his own time. A coworker of mine gave me this book entitled Super Natural Childbirth, written by Jackie Mize. That book was such a blessing to me. It taught me how to pray for my child. I prayed for the body, that it would be formed perfectly; I prayed for the heart, that it would function as God had created it to function. I prayed for every cell, and every organ, in the body. I reminded God that he said he was the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. He never changes. What he did for someone else, he could do for me, because he loves us all the same. I stood on the promises that He gave me personally, through his word, and through his prophesies. By this time, I was stronger in my faith, and I knew that one day I would have children. Yes, that’s right; I changed the way I was praying. I knew that God knew the desires of my heart, and he wouldn’t give me a desire that wasn’t possible to fulfill. I started praying for my children; because I knew that one day I would have more than one child. I stood firm on the fact that what my God had done for one, he could do for me.
I found out in Feb 2008, that I was pregnant. Again. I went in for the usual ultrasound, to make sure that the baby was OK, and alive…to our surprise, I measured 12 weeks!! We were so happy! How could I have been 3 months pregnant and not even know? God gracefully took me past the most crucial time frame without me having to worry what would happen. I saw her do a flip on the ultrasound, and I knew that she would thrive. During my pregnancy, I had to take a stand against the devil and not let him steal my joy. In august 2008, our seventh year of marriage, and our seventh child, we had our first baby girl. Praise the Lord, she was healthy and normal. Sometime after, I prayed that we would have a son. I wanted my husband to have a son to be able to teach, and to be able to do all the father/son things with. Again, in August 2010, the Lord blessed us with our son. I truly believe that our family is complete, and that the Lord was with me through it all. Children are a heritage from the lord and the fruit of the womb is his reward. Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and it shall be opened. He will never leave you nor forsake you; if you have faith as a mustard seed you can move your mountain. (Matthew 17:20)