There is a common saying: “You can miss Heaven by 18 inches.” That is about the distance between you head and your heart. I had an intellectual knowledge about Jesus but no heart knowledge. It’s like knowing you had a father and knowing your father. I did not know Jesus as my personal Saviour.
I had experienced God’s urgent call to salvation many times in my life. I told God “I’ll get around to salvation, but not now.” I was not ready to give up the temporary rewards sin has to offer. Every time I rejected God’s offer I fell deeper into sin.
The account I’m setting down here happened four days ago in a VA hospital, with a friend of of mine next to me and a man about to die. I experienced an urging in my gut to go to see this man who was dying form cancer of his liver. I know now it was the spirit of Jesus urging me to go see him, which in afterthought, was indeed the man’s last day living. This man (Roland) was not Christian, but had a weak faith in him. He was barely able to speak, such as his disease had robbed him of everything. I asked him if he was ready to accept Jesus as his personal savior and he nodded yes.
On October 5, I learned that my cat, Belle, was very ill with a liver disorder. I was heartbroken. The vet and I agreed to put her to sleep the next afternoon. Around noon the next day, I was holding her on my bed and loving her. My smartphone was about two feet away on my nightstand.
When I pray to God, I always ask for a sign from Him. That day I was praying, very desperate for Him. I asked for a sign as usual and finished praying.