Hi Michael,

Firstly, thanks for this wonderful site - it brings meaning to my life. I'm 26 years of age and have difficulty staying in relationship. I've always have terrible break-ups and I don't know why? I stayed single for a year and had given up on love. I started praying that God blesses me with the "man of my dreams" and I was very descriptive. I also prayed that God changes me first in order to be a better person because I felt there was something I was doing wrong. I met this guy a month ago and when I saw him I felt so differently about him and I started asking guidance from God. I prayed about it and when we both decided that we were entering a courtship, I prayed about it everyday. We broke up not so long ago because he didn't trust me and decided to get back together with his baby's mother, which is a very good thing. The problem is, he didn't tell me about it, he just started acting strange - which really hurt me, I found out about this recently from one of his cousins. I'm so hurt. When I prayed last night I told God that I was tired of being hurt and I asked Him that if I'm His child, why does He allow people to hurt me like this? I always ask God to bless the people that hurt me but this time I asked Him to rebuke them just like a father would if other kids were hurting his child. Am I wrong to pray for God to rebuke him?

I have forgiven him in my heart, honestly. One other question, is it wrong for me to pray that he comes back or am I just being unrealistic? He was very different from the other guys that I've dated and truth is I still love him. I know I shouldn't give up on love and all the wonderfull things it offers, but why do I always get raw deals? Am I doing something wrong?

I firmly believe in God and the Word, I understand what He wants from me and I also understand His promises to me. I was so dissapointed and I felt like the devil was attacking me. I knelt down and told God how dissapointed I was and how weak I felt. I'm stronger now but still need perspective. I trust in the Lord, He has done so many wonderful things for me. He has blessed in each and every aspect of my life. I just need perspective and strength.